longest emotional rollercoaster ride EVER!

soo many things happened the last 3 months. some good and exciting, some bad, and some...well, lets just say, i hope i can learn how to forgive and forget...which is HIGHLY impossible most of the time. :/ FEBRUARY... -brother came home from his mission. i was able to go to his homecoming with baby. im soo proud of him!! -my auntie decided to stop chemo and radiation because it wasnt helping AT ALL and cancer had spread EVERYWHERE. dr gave her 6 months. i decided to use that money i was saving for a car on the boys and my tickets to hawaii to spend time with her. -aliahs blessing. she was sooo pretty in her dress!! mom picked the most beautiful dress for her. mom, tanu, and nephi made it down for the blessing.

-mom and tanu left the day after babys blessing to help take care of auntie in hawaii. -also, the day after babys blessing, i took worthy to an intervention to see if he needed speech therapy and he DOES. hes 50% delay in communication. (my poor baby :() MARCH... -the babies and I met dad and alana at the airport for our flight to hawaii. was supposed to be the overnight flight, but it was delayed NINE HOURS! and we ended up leaving at 930 in the morning, which defeated the whole purpose of catching overnight flight so the kids can sleep and not be restless during the day...which they WERE! (shoulda known it was a sign as to how the rest of the month was gonna be...frickin A) -WORST MONTH OF MY ENTIRE LIFE...and thats an understatement. but we did get to go to the beach a couple times and got the hook up to the PCC night show 3 times. AND if i wasnt breastfeeding, pretty sure i woulda gained 20 lbs. for real.

-auntie passed and her services were the best ive ever attended. and im not just saying that because it was my aunties funeral. during the viewing, the pcc musicians played music and some women did the hula. and we had THE BOMB refreshments provided by the relief society. it was a celebration of life. im sure all the old folks felt a little weird being there because it didnt feel like a funeral at all. but all who knew my auntie...it was a service fit for her. and thats exactly the way she wanted it.

-after a whole month, we finally made it back home to daddy. happiest day of my life!! i had a rose and a card waiting for me when i walked into my room. :) APRIL... -mom in law treated us to the shark reef at mandalay bay and to lunch afterwards. the boys LOVED it. -the very next weekend after we got home from hawaii, we drove to LA for a football camp Brandon put on. aliah caught a cold right before we left hawaii and it was getting worse. during this trip, worthy and waylon also got sick...so i made zeus drive us home midnight saturday night/sunday morning...which was easter. and i didnt have time to run to the store AT ALL since i got home, so the easter bunny skipped our house this year. :( -took aliah in later that week because she was just getting worse even after i tried EVERYTHING. humidifier, syringe her nose, baby vicks, meds. doc said she had early stages of pneumonia. he had me take her to get her chest x rayed and prescribed her a nebulizer and antibiotics. when we got the exams back, her chest was clear which was good news. -the next week on the 18th, our anniversary, i noticed aliah had white spots in her mouth so i took her in AGAIN, and doc said she had thrush. so the list of meds for her to take grew a little. also that day, since it was our 4th anniversary, zeus and i took the boys to feed the ducks and then to get some yogurt afterwards.

-introduced aliah to the bottle to get her ready to stay at gmas for daddy and my date coming up. (plus i was starting to dry up) -aliah turned 4 months on the 22nd!! :)

-the 25th was worthy's 3rd birthday!! we made arrangements with everyone the night before to meet us at the park to celebrate, but due to the weather (we thought it was going to rain) we canceled it. but we did go over to the in laws home and enjoyed theo's waffles and ice cream and worthy got lots of gifts from his uncles and aunties. also, after a week and a half trying to get aliah to take a bottle, she finally took it this day...just in time for our date on the 28th. PHEW!! -the 27th...MOVING DAY!! the owners we were renting from was going to raise the rent so we found another place (that we absolutely LOVE!!). go figure that the week before we were to move, the property manager said the owner asked if we would stay if she didnt raise rent. but too late already!! we already put deposit down on our new place. anyway, we moved ALL.DAY. -the 28th. FINALLY the day came for our date night! the JAGGED EDGE CONCERT!! ;) all week zeus kept asking me if i was ready for the concert. yes i was excited but i didnt know what i was gonna wear...even up to the minute we were supposed to leave to drop the kids off at gmas. was the worse idea to pack and move the day before because i didn't know where ANYTHING was and dumped all boxes and bags with my clothes in it, out on the bed. our room was a mess...and i still cant find the belt i was looking for. the concert was SO.GOOD!! AND WE HAD SOME GOOD SEATS THANKS TO MASE AND ISIS, who were supposed to come with us but went out of town that weekend. NEXT performed...and one of the singers came right up to the railing in front of us. i was so into it that i forgot about taking pics and grabbed my phone too late. i snapped a pic right as he turned away and started walking back to the stage. i was acting all cool on the outside because zeus was sitting next to me...but really, on the inside i was screaming my head off and wanted to point to my cheek and yell KISS ME KISS ME!! lol!!

JAGGED EDGE was sooo good. i felt bad because zeus was trying to sing to me and get all cuddly while they performed but the girl next to me kept talking to me. hahahaha.

we also saw ZAPP perform. holy cow. u havent seen a show until u see them in concert. felt so good to be out with zeus again just the two of us...but i couldnt help but think about my babies as well. i missed them!! we left just a little bit early so we could catch theo deejaying at a ysa dance that ended at midnight. we caught the last 20 minutes and got our groove on a little (even tho i wanted to stay for the afterparty after the concert...but its ok!! lol) MAY... today is the 3rd. nephi graduates in a couple weeks. zeus took off that whole week bcuz were suppose to go to missouri for it...but after using ALL that money we were saving and then some, we are broke and hoping that everything we planned for this summer goes through and not falls through. best case scenario is that zeuss dad will find just 1 buddy pass so i can go for a couple days for the graduation. but well see. lots of things going on in june. wedding in st george at the beginning of the month, torees graduation, the barnum and bailey circus i wanted to take the babies to, and then my bffs wedding in salt lake at the end of the month. lots to look forward to thats for sure. and hopefully the rest of the year will make up for a crappy beginning of the year... oh blogger how ive missed you!! ;)